Written by Amy Reinhardt
“As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job’s perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.” –James 5:11
When I got sick a year and a half ago, I feared the unknown. What was causing my bizarre symptoms? Did I need to see a doctor?
When I got the autoimmune diagnosis, I feared how my life would change. Would the chemotherapy drug really make me lose my hair?
Month after month, I experienced drastic changes in my life. I stopped working and went on disability. I gave up my apartment and moved back home. My social life became nonexistent. It was like hitting pause on my own life.
There were even physical changes in my own body. Massive hair loss prompted me to shave my head. Daily dialysis became life support when I lost all kidney function. My weight shifted dramatically and I needed to wear loose-fit clothing to accommodate the extra fluid.
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!” – Isaiah 46:18
Despite the hardship, there is a light at the end of this journey. I am now officially on the transplant list. A donor kidney will restore my life. It will give back all the independence and energy that I’ve lost.
While I’m grateful to be headed toward a live-saving transplant, I’m fearful. Adapting to a new organ will be a huge transition.
After living a life of restrictions, suddenly, I will regain a life of possibilities. It will be an explosion of change, just like it was 18 months ago.
Dialysis has become a safety blanket. Being sick is what I’ve come to know. Once again I’m faced with the unknown. What will life be like post transplant?
God does not want me to live in fear. He calls us to be fearless. If I open myself to the miracle of my future transplant, I will experience this “new thing” He is doing for me – because He loves me.
This compassionate, merciful Father is rewarding me for my months of sacrifice and perseverance. And trust me, He will do the same for you.
At 28 years old, Amy Reinhardt has been an Ascension parishioner for over half her life. She led Disciples Dwelling and was heavily involved in the young adult ministry up until getting diagnosed with end-stage renal disease. She strives to radiate Christ’s light and love to all who are blessed to know her. If you’d like to read Amy’s health updates: www.caringbridge.org/visit/amyreinhardt.